2015.

So, here we are. The end of another year. December 2015. Another year is gone and to be honest, this one has been a really weird one for me. There's been many low points but at the other end of that, there's been some amazing high points.

The first one of those really high points landed on January 9th 2015, the day that I went out into the pit at a gig and photographed it. For the first time in my life, during those hours, I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I suddenly had this amazing confidence in myself and my own ability. The person I need to thank for that choice in my life is Dean Sherwood, he inspired me to want to properly grab my camera and peruse my dreams.

Another really high point happened in April 9th, again, I was photographing a gig. A few days before this day, I photographed a gig for a band (I'm not naming them) and honestly, it was terrible. It was terrible because of a lot of things and at the end of the night, I went home and started uploading and editing the photos that I'd taken and I cried. I sat in tears because as I was looking through these photos I felt my own confidence break down pretty fast and I almost quit but I didn't. The reason for that happened on April 9th, I was shaken when I got into that photo pit I had a lot of fun. I went home and looked at the photos and smiled because there it was, the photos came out great and I felt a lot better about myself and my work. (thank you Bry and Dodie!)

 In May, something I didn't think would happen, did happen. I met my favourite YouTuber; Connor Franta. It was really strange as I've been watching his videos basically from the start. It's always weird when you meet people that you look up to in real life. He is an amazing person and he helped me through a lot of my darker days and I still watch all of his videos to this day. So, I'd like to thank him for all the things he has done for me. Him and the rest of 02L are great and I owe a lot to them.

In June, something really big happened for me, I finished high school and honestly, that is something I didn't think I'd be able to say. High school was absolute hell for me, it absolutely broke me down, threw me down a hole and jumped on me until I felt I could no longer go on. But, I did it. I made it out and it was the best feeling in the world, to this day, it was the best I've felt in my whole life. It is a hard journey for everyone but as soon as you go out of those gates for the last time, you feel on top of the world. I went through fake friends, bullying, self harm and yet here I am, I made it out onto the other side. It's funny how life works like that.
In August, the second part of that happened, I got my results. Let me tell you, I was an absolute shaking mess when I grabbed them. I looked at them and I felt my heart skip a beat, I'd done it. I'd passed and I was taking a big step in my life because I was going to college. But as I left again, I had another decision to make, was it the right thing for me? There were three things I was great at when I was going through school; geography, English and chemistry. If I went to college, I would be doing English as I was going to do journalism and if I went to 6th form; I'd be doing chemistry. I needed to know what I wanted to do and in the end, I did Journalism and I won't know what would've happened if I'd done chemistry and a part of me still wishes that I'd gone on with chemistry but then, college is the best thing that I've done for myself in my life.

In September, that was when things really started to go in fast forward; aka, I started college. But the day before I started there, I met one of the most amazing person on twitter; Amy and I am so looking forward to meeting her in 2016! Anyway, on my first day, somebody talked to me and I knew her from my induction day; Dani and I never been happier that somebody reached out and talked to me because without this girl in my life, I would have quit college within the first week. Without realising it, she's made a lot of things easier for me and here we are, term one is done and I'm still there so thank you for that.

And those were the main points of 2015 for me and now, now for the fun things.

In 2015, I went to a lot of amazing gigs. I was lucky enough to see my favourite band in the whole world, The Vamps, five times and every time made me so happy. Being at their gigs in generally my happy, safe place, singing their songs at the top of my lungs, being with my friends. It's amazing what music does and this band, they honestly mean the whole world to me but I'm planing on dedicating a whole post to that when tour has finished again.
There was also Fusion Festival and that, there are no words to say how amazing that day was. As well as my favourite band being there, I was introduced to HomeTown, who are great!! I saw Adam Lambert, Conor Maynard, McBusted and Union J. The day was amazing from start to finish.
I was also lucky enough to go to the BBC music awards. It was one of the most amazing things that I've been too. I've always wanted to go to an awards show like that and we did it. It was breathtaking.

I also found a band this year, Road Trip, they're a new boyband and honestly I've been watching their videos since the start and these guys are amazing. 2016 is most definitely going to be their year. I'm so proud of these guys and I'm so happy that they're in my life. I'd like to thank them for making me smile and making me laugh, good luck for 2016 guys and I look forward to following your journey and meeting you!! (Twitter: RoadTrip3000) (Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZq2SKai_oKTh-pmhrXB9xQ )

Anyway, thank you to those who made 2015 a really good and to those who made it bad, I'm glad you're no longer a part of my life. I'm wishing you all a Happy New Year! Bring on 2016.

(Here are some of my highlights)

Bye guys!!!